New Beginnings

New Beginnings

(or...hindsight's 20/20)

We have January 2014 under our belts.  Yay.  It feels like an accomplishment after last year's roller coaster ride.  But I do want to go on record as saying that I don't believe in New Year's Resolutions.  No way.  I DO believe that we can turn a page though, and that we can put a mark on a blank slate.  But, if we wait for a particular date to make a significant change, then we risk insincerity.  

Change and reconstruction are things that happen every day.

Every minute.

So I don't have a resolution to share, but I might admit to having a new focus in my greater plan.  I am getting more real with each passing moment.  It's starting with being more unashamedly honest-with everyone.  This includes myself.  And that incorporates a cease fire on my barrage of apologies.  Everyone who knows me at ALL has experienced the never-ending "sorry."  Always genuine, always sincere.  I am sorry I wasn't more direct.  I am sorry I didn't think of that.  I am sorry it is raining....I am sorry....sorry....sorry.....

I have charted it carefully, like any ongoing illness, and I am certain it is a side effect of the ultra polite, uber compassionate, terminally proper southern girl programming that was inflicted on me beginning in utero.  Bless my heart.

So I am done being sorry, and I am done being ashamed of my reality.  I will not be apologetic for who I am any longer.  That being said, we shall commence upon an ongoing revelation of confessions....some titillating, some painfully obvious, and some quite entertaining....at least I hope.  So buckle up.  I have.